This is officially my first post in the new year, so happy (not so new) year to everyone! I hope you’re doing great, and that January went well.
So, 2021 came and an entire month has passed by. Time works in weird ways, don’t you think? Every day seems to drag so slowly, but every month just seems to fly.
Though I have more time everyday than I’ve ever had before, it feels so less.
January was a rather busy month for me, with many exams and classes. There was too much to do, and rather than doing, I spent all my time worrying about how much I had to do. Rather unproductive, actually.
In January, I uninstalled whatsapp as part of a digital detox sort of thing. (After seeing that I spend 5 hours there, on an average)
Initially it was really difficult for me, I nearly went back after two days. I suddenly began to feel that I was alone in the world and no one cares about me. This made me quite sad, so I spoke to some friends on call, and they made me feel better.
Apart from that it was quite boring, really. I didn’t like some of my online classes, and I would zone out halfway, and wouldn’t attend them.
It took me a while to accept that I may not like everything I am supposed to do, but I should do them anyways. Just because it’s my duty to do them. If I kept putting effort then I would eventually improve, and I shouldn’t give up just because I got bored halfway.
I wrote two important tests in Jan, and didn’t do well in either of them. This made me question what I was doing, and whether it was worth it to put in the effort if I don’t get results.
A good friend helped me realise that if I stopped putting in effort then I would not only fail, but also I would regret that I didn’t try at all. He said, putting in the effort is all that’s there in my hands, and that’s all I focus on doing right now. It will pay off sometime, if not now, because hardwork never goes waste.
Apart from this, I’m looking forward to February, and to my college reopening at last. After spending nearly a year at home, I have forgotten how sitting in a real class feels like.
I am both excited and a little nervous at the thought of meeting new people in a new college.
Still, I think this is a welcome change.
Though I have more time now because of classes being online, I waste most of it. Before I know it, the day is over and then I regret that I’ve done so little. I’ve fallen into a slump because of the monotony.
I was much more productive when I used to go to school all day, and do other activities. Hopefully I will be more motivated to study, from now onwards.
These are still uncertain times, and we don’t know what’s going to happen. As much as I hate uncertainty, there’s nothing I can do about it.
Anyways, that’s all about me and what happened in January, and thank you for reading if you’ve read till here. Have a great year ahead!